子浪小说

第70部分（第5页）

reality；　and　Cossethay；　her　beloved；　beautiful；　wellknown

Cossethay；　which　was　as　herself　unto　her；　that　was　minor

reality。　This　prison　of　a　school　was　reality。　Here；　then；　she

would　sit　in　state；　the　queen　of　scholars！　Here　she　would

realize　her　dream　of　being　the　beloved　teacher　bringing　light

and　joy　to　her　children！　But　the　desks　before　her　had　an

abstract　angularity　that　bruised　her　sentiment　and　made　her

shrink。　She　winced；　feeling　she　had　been　a　fool　in　her

anticipations。　She　had　brought　her　feelings　and　her　generosity

to　where　neither　generosity　nor　emotion　were　wanted。　And　already

she　felt　rebuffed；　troubled　by　the　new　atmosphere；　out　of

place。

She　slid　down；　and　they　returned　to　the　teachers　room。　It

was　queer　to　feel　that　one　ought　to　alter　ones　personality。　She

was　nobody；　there　was　no　reality　in　herself；　the　reality　was　all

outside　of　her；　and　she　must　apply　herself　to　it。

Mr。　Harby　was　in　the　teachers　room；　standing　before　a　big；

open　cupboard；　in　which　Ursula　could　see　piles　of　pink

blotting…paper；　heaps　of　shiny　new　books；　boxes　of　chalk；　and

bottles　of　coloured　inks。　It　looked　a　treasure　store。

The　schoolmaster　was　a　short；　sturdy　man；　with　a　fine　head；

and　a　heavy　jowl。　Nevertheless　he　was　good…looking；　with　his

shapely　brows　and　nose；　and　his　great；　hanging　moustache。　He

seemed　absorbed　in　his　work；　and　took　no　notice　of　Ursulas

entry。　There　was　something　insulting　in　the　way　he　could　be　so

actively　unaware　of　another　person；　so　occupied。

When　he　had　a　moment　of　absence；　he　looked　up　from　the　table

and　said　good…morning　to　Ursula。　There　was　a　pleasant　light　in

his　brown　eyes。　He　seemed　very　manly　and　incontrovertible；　like

something　she　wanted　to　push　over。

〃You　had　a　wet　walk；〃　he　said　to　Ursula。

〃Oh；　I　dont　mind；　Im　used　to　it；〃　she　replied；　with　a

nervous　little　laugh。

But　already　he　was　not　listening。　Her　words　sounded

ridiculous　and　babbling。　He　was　taking　no　notice　of　her。

〃You　will　sign　your　name　here；〃　he　said　to　her；　as　if　she

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